Friday, June 1, 2012

Have a Little Faith?

The title of this post....while fitting....is very hard for me to do right now.

Kevin and I are just over 5 months from walking down the aisle and we just don't know if it will be a Catholic cermony or not.

Let me give you a background.

Kevin was previously married. I was not. Kevin's ex wife was Catholic and they were not married in a Catholic ceremony....therfore it should be an easy annullment. Empasis on the word EASY! It's not.

First we have to prove she was baptized Catholic. We can't locate her baptism certificate and the fact that she refuses to help us further than telling us the location of where she "thinks" it was....isn't helping.

Second. My priest. Gigantic "tool." Yeah. I said it. He took his sweet ol' time starting to locate the baptism certificate and now that we can't seem to locate it, he now decides to tell me....maybe we shouldn't have scheduled your wedding till we had all the documents in order. I never thought I would want to punch a priest....but I so do.

I love Kevin and have to rely on that a lot right now. My faith is being severly questioned right now, because while I still believe in the almighty and all the covenants, I am extremelly disheartened by the steps I am having to undertake to marry a man that the Church may not deem "fit" for me to marry because he was previously married. I can't help that I fell in love with him. It should NOT matter that he was married before. It should ONLY matter that we love each other and wish to raise our future children in love and faith. Kevin has jumped through hoops to try and give me this Catholic wedding and frankly most men would have balked over everything, he just asked what more could he do to help.

Have a little faith???

God willing I will see the light at the end of the tunnel and faith, in whatever form, will see me through.